Ps 127:3 Lo, children are an heritage of the LORD: and the fruit of the womb is his reward.As arrows are in the hand of a mighty man: so are the children of the youth.Happy is the man that hath his quiver full of them: they shall not be ashamed,but they shall speak with the enemies in the gate
Monday, December 28, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
We are expecting #9
Thank you for all the prayers.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
It's been along time
We are homeschooling our 3 girls,while I work M-Th and Dad homeschools while I work,then I do it while he works.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Onto month 12 of trying to conceive our 9th baby
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Our second day at homeschooling
Psalm 16
Psalm 16
1Preserve me, O God: for in thee do I put my trust.
2O my soul, thou hast said unto the LORD, Thou art my Lord: my goodness extendeth not to thee;
3But to the saints that are in the earth, and to the excellent, in whom is all my delight.
4Their sorrows shall be multiplied that hasten after another god: their drink offerings of blood will I not offer, nor take up their names into my lips.
5The LORD is the portion of mine inheritance and of my cup: thou maintainest my lot.
6The lines are fallen unto me in pleasant places; yea, I have a goodly heritage.
7I will bless the LORD, who hath given me counsel: my reins also instruct me in the night seasons.
8I have set the LORD always before me: because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.
9Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoiceth: my flesh also shall rest in hope.
10For thou wilt not leave my soul in hell; neither wilt thou suffer thine Holy One to see corruption.
11Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
My baby girl turned 5 today
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMILY!!!!
It has been 5yrs since I gave birth to her. She is our blessing,she was unplanned but I know God truly gave her to us for a reason.She has been the light and the ray of our sunshine everyday since he gave her to us. I gave birth August 15 at 6am she weighed 6lbs and 12oz's and 19 inches long.The most beautiful little girl I have ever seen.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Recieved our diagnostic testing in the mail yesterday
Saturday, August 1, 2009
My homeschool excitment
I'm so excited and can't believe I'm doing this.I'm nervous and excited all at the sametime but know with God's help I will do this.
Friday, July 17, 2009
It's been along time.
We have started infertiliy meds,actually we started them about July 6,and all is good.During the course of the injectable meds,we learned that my ovaries did a wonderful job,in fact I only have one right tube and the left is gone.My right side was the champ,making 3 follicles for us and my left nothing.Praise God is all I can see,I truly believe God had his hand in this. Monday I did a trigger shot to release the follicles and am now in the 2ww.
Wish us luck and pray for us.
I truly have felt everyones prayers,you have no idea how much they have been needed.
Thank you.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
We have lost the baby!!
We have lost the baby.
We will wait till I actually miscarry then start again.
I can't believe my precious little miracle baby is gone.
I love you my baby.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
I'm preggo!!!!!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Today was not very good
Today I started my cycle in which was supposed to be a happy ending but instead it was a very upsetting ending.
Our plan of action is to start infertility medication and in hopes produce more eggies. Then if our timed intercourse does not work then it's of to do a LAP to find out if anything else is wrong before we proceed to an IUI.
I had hoped we would not need to do this but it looks as if we are.
I have been doing really great up until today when I saw my cycles start.It hurt more because I had such high hopes that trying as hard as we did it would have worked,despite the antibodies my husband has.
This journey has been very difficult to walk,I gave up for awhile because it was overwhelming me and taking over my life.
I just hope one day God blesses us again.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Today
So,tonight I'm going to attempt in painting.
I'm so excited I can not wait to see what it looks like.It will be a hint of light mint green.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Alot has been going on
The kids are super busy,spending time in the poo with them,cleaning carpets and I'm going to paint our bedroom tommorrow.
Working alot as well when I can.
Just scheduled my classes and not looking forward to them next semester at all.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Today has been the saddest
We found out Mother's Day 2006.I was not happy but soon after the shock had warn off,I was happy.My husband was having to spend the weeks in another city for work and I was taking care of all the kids.
After about a week of having my blood drawn and countless u/s the Dr's said, "Mam, we don't think the baby is going to form" I was devestated beyond everything. I cried myself to sleep as my husband was not home.I had to go to the Dr's visits weekly by myself. In grief and dispair I prayed so hard.
Finally the day before my D&C which was today 3yrs ago.The Dr finally did another u/s to make sure.She came back and said, "Go home talk it over with your husband and call me back and let me know what y'all decide". I went home waited for my husband and told him,we agreed to have the D&C.
It was the worst feeling in my entire life.
I still greive and moarn for that precious life.
Monday, June 8, 2009
I'm missing my baby who I lost June 9th 2006.
I moarn for that baby all the time.He/she would have been almost 2 1/2 yrs old and born exactly 13 days after my 1st born.
I loved you so much and I can't wait to see your beautiful face when I get to heaven.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Our yard sale was sooo good
It was a ton of fun,my husband loves to wheel and deal,too bad it does not work when he has to use it.
I'm so proud we did such a great job.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
This poem "Wait" has really touched my heart
Thank you Paige.
In all this time we have waited for our miracle,God has really worked on me.I think for the greater good.I see much straighter these days.
WAIT. . . .
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate...
And the Master so gently said, "Wait"
"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your word."
"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a "yes", a go-ahead sign.
Or even a "NO" to which I can resign."
"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking; and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply.
" Then quietly, softly I learned of my fate.
As my Master repied again, "Wait".
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So I'm waiting for what?"
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine. . .
and He tenderly said, i could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.
"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but wouldn't know me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.
"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.
"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that i give, and I save, for a start,
But, you'd now know the depth of the beat of My heart.
"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that' beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.
"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you."
"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft my answers seem terribly late.
My most precious answer of all is still. . . Wait."
Potty Training
We have a dry night and a few accidents,not alot but only when playing she forgets and then says she has peed her panties.
So, we are no diapers,only panties.
She is now 26 months,so we think the time might be right.She has done very well.
We are taking it easy and letting her lead the potty training time.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Gosh it seems as forever when my hubby went under the knife for a vasectomy reversal
We have been so blessed already with such great kids. I can not believe how time flies when your kids are growing older.It seemed as if yesterday our Catey turned 2yrs old in March.
June 9th will mark the 2yrs since my hubby had his vasectomy,right after our Catey turned 3 months old.
I'll never forget the emptiness I felt as we left the clinic at the Army hospital.
Thunderstorms and power outage
SO, now I have got the kids off to school and one to homeschool,plus awards this morning at one academy child,plus our women's bible study is canceled.I'm a bit freed up but really wanted to attend the baby shower for a great friend of mine. In fact I even enjoyed shopping for the baby.I could not stop shopping.I guess my wanting for more children and it taking a while must not be that bad because i can still shop for other people's babies.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Homeschool Journal for May 26 "What does your backyard look like?
Ally wrote her backyard is big enough for a horse.
She feels like she can go pick a flower,it's so pretty.
We have a ton of homeschool things to tackle today,like for instance math,language arts and phonics.
Monday, May 25, 2009
4 days left of school
I can not believe she is growing up so much.It amazes me how much she has grown and how much knowledge she has.
I'm homeschooling her next yr God willing.I don't know how but I'll do it.It has gotten very expensive sending her to a private Christian academy and putting her back in the public school is out of the question.
So, in 4 days it will summer for her.
HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY
I pray daily for all who are serving and have served.
THANK YOU!!!!!
GOD BLESS AMERICA!!!!
Monday, May 4, 2009
Selfishness
I'm trying a new technique and upholding God in my daily walk as I should have been doing as well as lifting up my husband to God daily. My husband should be my priority after God and he has not b/c my desires have not been met
Saturday, April 25, 2009
My 7 yr old is a born again Christian,she has received the gift
I can't imagine to tell everyone,how excited I am.This definately is a time to celebrate. Tomorrow she will take the next step and be baptised. I'm sooo excited for her. The other day,the exact day she accepted the Lord,she sang "Set the World on Fire" by Brit Nicole.I'll play the song. It is so deep.
PRAISE GOD!!!!!!
Friday, April 24, 2009
Missing my MIL
I love you Lynda,I miss you and so do your Grandkids.
These pictures are for you.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
My evening with my oldest daughter
I can't believe she is 20. Does time fly by that fast.
What a wonderful day of sunshine
Monday, April 20, 2009
A verse I really like
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."
Saturday, April 18, 2009
My prayer
I know I have not been the best Christ like child of yours but I do try epecially in this world I live in. I hope you can forgive me for not coming to you in prayer before my husband had his vasectomy but we now realize that what we did was wrong and that we want to open our hearts and lives to however blessings you give us. We so desperately want more children to feel our house to train up in your ways,they will be your children,the children waiting at your throne sitting right beside you.
Thank you for all you have done in our lives,we truly have been blessed beyond that of anyone else in this world or for that fact those unable to conceive,but if you see fit Lord to open my womb and bless us,we glady will open
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
God Why?
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Homeschooling
As far as the curriculum,I am going to be doing Abeka,that is what she has been doing,so I feel it is better to stay consistant.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
The last supper
Mark 14:22-25
"As they did eat,Jesus took bread, and blessed,and broke it, and gave to them,and said,Take,eat;this is my body. And he took the cup,and when he had given thanks,he gave to them;and they drank of it. And he said unto them, This is my blood of the new testament,which is shed for many. Verily I say unto you, I will drink no more of the fruti of the vine,until the day that I drink it new in the kingdom of heaven of God.
As I sit here,I think of how Jesus did this for me. I never have really had this much thought during "Holy Week" but for some reason something came over me to study and teach my kids about the days leading up to the cruxifiction and resurrection of Christ. It seemed as if God was telling me I need to teach this to them. Oh,how I wish I could walk the walk Jesus took,even through the garden of Gethsemane.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Psalm 139: 7-10
Or where shall I flee from your presence?
8 If I ascend to heaven, you are there!
If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
9 If I take the wings of the morning
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10 even there your hand shall lead me,
and your right hand shall hold me.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Palm Sunday
I encourage everyone to read.Matthew 21:1-11; Mark 11:1-11; Luke 19:28-44; and John 12:12-19.
This week is leading up to the best thing God ever gave us, eternal life. Oh Thank you God for giving us your son,that we may have eternal life.
Jesus, oh thank you for all you suffered for,for our sins when we did not deserve this,but you did it for us.
Thank you Jesus.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Our agenda today
Then my lovely son will be attending Prom this year,so mommy gets to go have him fitted for it. WOW!!!!!! I'm so excited.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Not putting much effort into trying to have another baby
This evening my husband and I discussed us not trying to have another baby. It's too much emotionally, mentally for me. I'm mad at everyone, mad at the world and not being a person I should be, my ever being is rolled into this trying to have another baby. I can't allow this to consume, of course it will be hard because I'm not the type of person to let it get the best of me. I 'm determined to have another baby but know that I need to leave it alone and fly on and live my life like I had no desire for more children. I know I keep telling myself this all the time and then flip flop back to jump on the band wagon, but today was the worst for me, and I need to let go.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Life being too short
He was buried yesterday without her even knowing and she felt so out of place and needing to say something to him.
I took her to his grave sight today and she fell to pieces because they parted on bad terms.
Life is too short to go one with words of regret. If you have ever said harsh words to anyone,please remember to apologise because you never know what can happen or when you go to meet the Lord.
I just can't do this anymore
I wish I would have never gave up breastfeeding my baby girl,I could have had a few more months of that bonding.
This is really not fair.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Had such a great day with my Emily.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
I can't believe my Catey bug will be 2 in 10 days.
Today she was playing in her sand box which by the way we bought sand at home depot yesterday. She just loves playing in the sand and having fun. We have been trying to fix up the backyard and get our garden planted,which we have planted only three tomatoe plants as well and four jalapeno plants. I can't wait, I'll making tons of salsa.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
My two cuties in the sun
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
We are on our way to the magical kingdom of Disneyworld
Please keep us in prayer.
Friday, March 6, 2009
The word "Mommy"
Sunday, March 1, 2009
We have an update on our RE appt
Thank you everyone for being such great loving Godly friends,I do appreciate it.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Today is our Dr's appt with the RE to find a possible cure
I'm hoping in time God can work miracles or work within me to find that ending point.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Need prayers please
I have been a wreck ever since. I can't see God sending us down this road and this ending this way. A few of my friends say well maybe this is God's way of saying your done. I'm having a hard time with my faith,I'm a very devout Christian and know God can work miracles,but my worldy mind is sort of taking over. I'm devestated by this.I don't want to stop having babies because my husband and I have decided to leave that up to the Lord.In the same breath I'm so heart broken.I feel as if my heart as been ripped out and there is nothing anyone can do.I have been crying off and off ever since.
Please pray for me as well as a miracle of healing to work in husbands case.
Love to all my friends.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Today Catey pooped and peed in the toilet!YAY!!!!
GO Catey!!!!!!!
Monday, January 12, 2009
My baby girl is turning 20 on Thursday
I LOVE YOU NICOLE,MY BABY GIRL. GOD HAS TRULY BLESSED ME WITH YOU.
School is back in session for me
An update on our baby making journey
I am having an HSG scheduled for Thursday at 12;30 am. We are still waiting upon the Lord.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
2008
I'm glad to have had the chance of having my husband have the vasectomy reversal,so we can add another bundle of joy to our family.My oldest to turn 19, my only boy to turn 17,my stepson to turn 16,my beautiful miracle baby to turn 7,my sweet spiritfilled Emily to turn 4 and my wonderful go,go girl Catey to turn 1.
My husband and I have embarked on another yr of marriage,which is now 12+ yrs. I love him like I have since the beginning,he is my best friend, lover and the best man I could have married.He cares and devotes himself to his children.