Best Of: A List Of Prayers For Your Future Husband

Best Of: A List Of Prayers For Your Future Husband

Sewing class at home

My Frugal Living

So, about a month or so ago, we decided to start using homemade dishwasher soap. I bought a box of Borax,Washing soda and Citra Shine,combined each one, at 1 cup, and it works great.

Catey at the dentist

Graci painting

No pregnancy this month

Well it looks like no pregnancy this month, I decided I will loose a ton of weight in hopes that will help, I am still fertile and in excellent health, my OB Dr doesnt see why we cant be pregnant. We have lost 4 precious babies that were so much wanted,and our hearts hurt so much because of the those losses. So onto next month. My OB does think because of my c-section and the way it was cut that I could have scar tissue preventing from the babies actually growing past a certain gestation. The last two were at 9weeks/11weeks and she thinks its a possibility that they implanted on the scar and therefore not enough blood supply to keep going. So, will have an HSG, b/c we gave our womb over to God and we dont abstain or prevent or use birth control a pregnancy can happen.

Happy Birthday to my sweet Daughter Nicole

I cant believe 24yrs ago, I gave birth to my first baby,a girl. I love you sweetheart.

Prayer request

As we attempt to try and conceive we ask The Lord open my womb if its will. He commands to be fruitful and multiply and we are open to that. We give my womb over to God who is the creator if life and ask if it be his will we concieve.

Mickey Mouse Pillow Case

This is dress I made for a friends daughter.

What God is teaching me

So, I said Id come back and here I am.

Sunday morning was just terrible for me, weepy, and I mean just crying at the drop of a hat, sitting in church and could not help but just cry. I kept thinking of how much I miss my babies to how much I know God will carry me to he knows best and whatever his will is I need to stand on that. We feel very convicted in the verse that he commands us to be fruitful and multiply,and psalm 127 that says the fruit of the womb is HIS reward so we stand on those.
I kept being weepy and during altar call I felt led to go get on my knees, I truly had not felt Gods presence lately through alot that has happened in the last yr and a half, alot of marital problems and then loosing babies,to loosing my father in law and my only living Grandmother who was the only link I had to my biological mother. I had started taking zoloft because I felt after my fourth loss, first back to back loss that I could not cope,so I asked my OB Dr if she would prescribe something. I decided a month or so ago to get off of it. I think it masked alot of what needed to come out.
I knelt on my knees at that altar, not wanting at all to pour my heart out, I couldnt, I just couldnt. I couldnt trust God would be there,so I cried so hard, tears running down my face snot running down my nose, I kepy nodding No, Lord Im not gonna do it. Im not gonna do it, all of a sudden I wept like a baby to him, I said Lord I need to feel you with me,I need to know your there right beside me, I know he is according to the bible,but I just had not felt him, that morning I felt him, here I was a sinner in front of the Lord asking for him to comfort me,to hold me and tell its gonna be ok.

I have never felt so relieved and cleansed after that, I knew he was with me in my mind but my soul did not feel him,and I needed to feel that,i needed to feel his presence.

The Lord has been really working on my heart

Wow is all I can say,the Lord has really been working on me, I can actually say that I am in such a better place. Be back later for update.