I'm preggo!!!!!

I can not believe this,we finally did it,we finally made it through a tough time of trying to conceive.

I'm due March 8th,I'm super excited and very nervous.

Here is my beautiful BFP.

Today was not very good

I had hope since TTC'ing it would have worked this month.It's been almost a yr August 29th since Chuck had a vasectomy reversal.
Today I started my cycle in which was supposed to be a happy ending but instead it was a very upsetting ending.
Our plan of action is to start infertility medication and in hopes produce more eggies. Then if our timed intercourse does not work then it's of to do a LAP to find out if anything else is wrong before we proceed to an IUI.
I had hoped we would not need to do this but it looks as if we are.
I have been doing really great up until today when I saw my cycles start.It hurt more because I had such high hopes that trying as hard as we did it would have worked,despite the antibodies my husband has.
This journey has been very difficult to walk,I gave up for awhile because it was overwhelming me and taking over my life.
I just hope one day God blesses us again.

Today

Well, today as gone to the pooper. I started out wanting to paint my bedroom,but shortly that turned into not doing it because of course I had grocery shopping to do.
So,tonight I'm going to attempt in painting.
I'm so excited I can not wait to see what it looks like.It will be a hint of light mint green.

Alot has been going on

Well, first lets say we are TTC again,hoping this time works out. All the other months it has been whatever if it happens great if not then great.Not really a scheduled thing either.

The kids are super busy,spending time in the poo with them,cleaning carpets and I'm going to paint our bedroom tommorrow.
Working alot as well when I can.
Just scheduled my classes and not looking forward to them next semester at all.

Today has been the saddest

I remember when I first got pregnant with the baby.I had a 16month old,just moved across country,my husband had just retired from the Navy and was starting his job very soon and was an hr and half a way from home.I was so over whelmed and did not want another baby so soon.Unfortunately God had other plans for me.
We found out Mother's Day 2006.I was not happy but soon after the shock had warn off,I was happy.My husband was having to spend the weeks in another city for work and I was taking care of all the kids.
After about a week of having my blood drawn and countless u/s the Dr's said, "Mam, we don't think the baby is going to form" I was devestated beyond everything. I cried myself to sleep as my husband was not home.I had to go to the Dr's visits weekly by myself. In grief and dispair I prayed so hard.
Finally the day before my D&C which was today 3yrs ago.The Dr finally did another u/s to make sure.She came back and said, "Go home talk it over with your husband and call me back and let me know what y'all decide". I went home waited for my husband and told him,we agreed to have the D&C.
It was the worst feeling in my entire life.
I still greive and moarn for that precious life.

I'm missing my baby who I lost June 9th 2006.

Today was the day before my D&C to remove the baby who we had wanted so much.
I moarn for that baby all the time.He/she would have been almost 2 1/2 yrs old and born exactly 13 days after my 1st born.
I loved you so much and I can't wait to see your beautiful face when I get to heaven.