52 days since our vasectomy reversal and Praise God we saw spermies

Yes, you read it,we are 52 days out and we saw spermies for the fifth time. Oh! Thank you Jesus. I can 't get over how happy I'am and how lucky and thankful I am. We did not get pregnant this cycle so we are onto the next. With the Lord's help we will be preggo in no time.

Nancy

My baby girls first day back to school

Well, Emily started back to school today. She at first was sooo nervous but then sooo excited.I can't wait for her to be in Kinder.

The night before my beautiful surprise blessing made her entrance

Tonight about 4yrs ago, I was in labor with my now beautiful surprise blessing, Emily. God knew what he was doing when he surprised us with her. Her father and I have always said God knew what he did. He gave us this surprise baby to get our lives straight and to watch her ever so sweet spirit blossom. She truly has been a blessing to all of us; she is the ray of our sunshine daily. She can light up a room whenever she walks in. She has this light about her when she talks about the Lord, she truly does love God. I think she'll be my minister one day. She struts around telling everyone Jesus died on the cross and rose again. I remember feeling so overwhelmed about giving birth because she was my fourth; I thought could I do this with four kids. I remember my labor unfortunately with our Emily; we had gone to the L&D about 50 times before the last was a final stay. I kept saying I know I'm, in labor, I just know it, and sure enough I was not. The last and final trip I told my husband I'm not leaving unless I leave with a baby. The doctors had a bet that she'd come out 9lbs,but of course you'll have to wait for our surprise in the morning because that is when she was born. We arrived at the hospital, the Naval Medical Center to be exact about 8ish,the night before. I had been so exhausted from being at L&D the few nights before. I can't wait to see my beautiful baby. Tomorrow she will have been born at 8am 4yrs ago.

22 days and a wake up till our vasectomy reversal

I can not believe time is moving soooo fast and my head is spinning. I'm about to be able to actually TTC soon,without even thinking that there is blockage. When we will TTC,when will get preggo,what will I have.I'm more excited about this than giving birth. I can not wait to be able to plan for another baby,if I was not getting older,I'd have 6 more. I love my children,more than life itself.My girls and I had a day at the nail salon today.We had such a wonderful time,but of course the nail polish came off,and there went the money I spent down the drain.But it doesn't come every day you can spend that time with them.

25 days and a wake up till our vasectomy reversal

I can not believe it is getting so close, I have waited for this day since a few short months after my husband had his vasectomy.Believe it or not. I don't really know what it was that brought to that stage,but I felt a few weeks later,that having the vasectomy was wrong.I felt something was missing from me. I knew I had wanted a few more,but my husband was very adamant about not having anymore,till one day he came home about 4 wks later after his vasectomy. Told me he did not care if the Lord gave us more blessings,that he was ok with it.Then one day came and said " Call the Dr schedule me for a vasectomy reversal".
I was the happiest person ever.

1 month from today our lives will change

One month from today our lives will change. It will be the day Chuck gets a vasectomy reversal.I'm so nervous as the day approaches. I can't believe it will come so quick,I mean in exactly 1 month. I keep thinking of what we will be doing the night before,the week after,2 weeks after,a month after. I wonder when our great Lord will bless us. I think we will wait a bit for some unresolved matters to take place first before we begin our journey of trying to concieve. It's nothing God can't fix and we will take whatever the good Lord has in store for us.
I often lay in bed and wonder when I do get preggo,what we will have,will he be a he,or will she be a she. I'm so wanting another little boy b/c my little boy is turning out to be a big boy now,and I'll be saying good-bye for college,and I'll miss him.I so want another little princess like her sisters. In fact my oldest daughter said to me the other day " mom I dreamed you had another little girl and she looked just like Catey".
Another chapter in our lives will begin August 29th.

My son was assulted and beaten

Last night,will be a night not forgotten. We dropped our boy off at a friends house to only be beaten

The night before my wedding

As tomorrow approaches,it will be our 12th yr anniversary. Tonight,I sit and remember the night before I married the man of my dreams. I remember sitting with my best freind,cousin and yes,even my daughter Nicole. We all sat around laughing and giggling. My soon to be husband was away with a friend spending the night,I'll never forgot how nervous I was that I had finally met the man who I'd spend the rest of my life with,that we'd have 7 children,4 of whom were our's together. I never thought in a million years,I'd still be married and still in love with him,like it was yesterday.
I remember waking up and thinking today I'm getting married,oh how that day would change my life forever.
It was July 26th, 1996 in San Diego California in a nice little chapel on the Navy base where my husband would be stationed.

I love you honey always and forever.

Our summer fun day in the sun

Pictures from our fun in the sun day

Today

Today has been so much fun spending it with my girls. My handsome boys are working so today is just the girls and I.
We first went to Walmart,our daily does of Wally World,it's a redneck thing. We have to have our daily fix. It was fun each of us looked at things we'd like to have,our wish list. Then we bought a few groceries,and off to home for our lunch. Ally had ravioli's,Emily & I ate Tuna sandwiches,and Catey well her toddler meal,which was raviolis and veggies. Then it was playtime outside in the pool. We had a blast. We also played in the water,Catey was having a blast because she got to hold the water hose. That was amazing to her,go figure. It's the littlest things that make a little one happy.
Now we are off to put our free mulch we picked up in our garden beds,and fix them.
I'll post pictures for y'all to see.

The loss of a child

This past Wednesday,I had the unfortunate experience attending a funderal for a friend of mine from church. It was the funeral of her little boy Clayton Dean,he was 2 1/2 yrs old. He was so full of life,vibrant,smiling and very high strung,but what little boy isn't.

It was a very sad day for all of us on Wednesday July 16th,it would be a day that would change all of us at church.The Sunday before was when we all got the terrible news of little Clayton passing.. The accident happened Saturday night July 12th. I got a call that night that they had been a bad accident,it was my friend,her daughter,her son and her niece. That night her little boy Clayton went to meet the Lord.

Today I sit here and look at my babies and thank God I have them safe and sound. I see Emily's vibrant little smile with her big brown eyes. Her beautiful blonde hair and the light that makes her shine. The love of the Lord she reveals daily. I see Ally,my almost 7yr old and can't forget the day I gave birth,or the day I found out. My Ally,her blonde hair and her brown eyes,so full of life. My red headed Catey,her beautiful big blue eyes and her crooked little smile,her funny little laugh,when her sisters push her around the room on her scooter. Corey,my strong willed argumentative son,who will forever live with his parents,so he says. He is my ray of sunshine,my little man is no little boy anymore,he is almost a man. Brandon,to whom I care for,the boy who was once this sweet little,quite,shy little boy is now becoming a young teen at the age of 16.My big girl and first born,Nicole,we have had our differences and have always bounced back. We have such a close relationship. A mother and daughter relationship that will never cease.The kind of relationship,you wish you had with your own mother,the kind where you could talk about anything.

To my babies,I pray daily the Lord watches over you. I pray his angels cover you during your time away from me.

I pray for my friend and her family,for guidance,for peace and understanding.

My 1st born baby doesn't live at home anymore

1st of July and still so man things to do!!!!!!

Well, today is the 1st of July and yet we can't decide what we are doing school wise for our girls. I want to homeschool,but feel it may be ovewhelming for me,as I will be in school as well. I thought about the private academy for both,but that would be too expensive. Today I thought well, if I work part-time and go to school part-time,I could possibly swing it,but then again, it would mean driving Chuck to work everyday as we only have one car.
I can't make a decision,and I have prayed about it,so I'll leave it up to the lord.

Today we decorated the girls room,we painted it Blessed Rose,it's soo cute. I can't wait. Tomorrow we will be hanging up knick knacks and things. It will be fun decorating a girls room all over again. Kind of makes me feel as if a new baby is coming. I love decorating nurseries.

My poor little Catey bug is a little sick today. Since coming home from CA and being near the wild fires,it has affected her. She is coughing soo much,plus has a runny nose. My poor little girl. The Dr said "Give her,her treatments twice a day".

A very busy and emotional week

Well, first it started with Monday June 9th,being our Angelversary for our baby we lost in 2006. I remember that day so vividly b/c I woke up at 4am,had to shower with iodine and be at the hospital for my D&C,my final goodbye to my baby. I had so much wanted that baby,but not till I had realized he was our gift from God. I will miss him sooo much.

Tuedays my BFF came to visit,I have not seen her for 2yrs exactly on Tuesday. I missed the late night conversations,about our kids and comparing our kids with each other kids.She has 5 as I have 6. It's funny b/c she is 4 yrs younger than me.

Well, my BFF came and went. I had such a great timer with her. We went to a spa,she bought me a eye brow wax treatment. It hurt but was fun.

Today

Well, it seems as if I have not been doing my writing,so here it goes.

We have had to put off our Vasectomy reversal b/c of some financial reasons,but that is ok,I have learned God answers prayers in his own timing,and well we are just patiently waiting. We went ahead and scheduled yet another appointment August 29th with a great surgeon here in San Antonio Texas,He is recommended by a great Doctor,so yet another down payment,so know God will see fit to answer our prayer.

I have had so much going on,first,my kids are out of school now YAY!!!!!! The pool is set up and ready for there summer to begin.My oldest son finally got a job at the local put put golf place,my nest to youngest step son went looking yesterday and has an interview at Denny's. I'm so happy,I hope he gets it so he can become independant,but then my help goes away.BOOHOOO!!! Just kidding!!!

My hopeful pregnancy went south

Well, Mother's day is supposed to be the best ever Right? Well, mine was when I took a pregnancy test and low behold,got a positive,but soon after I would be told,it was a negative. I found out yesterday,that my false positive was a negative instead.
I was devastated beyond belief, I mean I have really hoped soo much,that I was pregnant,but of course I don't think I am.
We have 3wks left before my husband receives his vasectomy reversal,and I'm not hopeful this will work,why! Because ,I think the good Lord has different plans for us.
So many times we have gone down this road,first,after my tubal reversal,the months and years leading up to my reversal,and after a year long wait,another tragedy.They had said 99% sure it would happen,unknown to be,they could not do it,so another year wait to finally have it happen and concieve my beautiful baby girl Alyson.
So here I sit today,thinking that maybe,I'll just try and remain calm and see what the Lord has plans for us.

The moarning of my Mother's day baby I lost

Today is a moarning day for me,this time 2006,I had gotten a positive test with the sweet baby we lost June 9th,2006.I can remember it so vividly because it would be God would teach me through my loss,that every child is a precious gift from him and we to raise them in him. I had not wanted anymore children, I was ready to take the next step in my life and raise my girls,but God would change my heart and now I want has many has God will give us. I think when I finally realized that my children were not a burden is when God opened my heart.He taught me to cherish my moments with them and watch them grow into adults.

I have been dreading this weekend for about 2wks now.I dread thinking about it,because I am missing my baby in heaven with the Lord.I know the Lord will give us more,but today I moarn my baby,I miss spending mother's day with him/her.



To my sweet baby boy/girl.I love you more than you could ever know,and I am sorry I dreaded being pregnant with another baby,I should have rejoiced in being pregnant instead of dreading another baby. I miss you.

My new found hobby!!!

3weeks and 4 days till Dr Wilson performs magic!!

Today is 3 weeks and 4 days till we have our vasectomy reversal. The Lord has really blessed us with such an awesome Dr in Oklahoma. I can not wait to meet the God fearing man.I have heard so many wonderful things about him.
I have already made the arrangements as far as the hotel,just waiting on a good friend of mine,who is going to give us flight tickets since they are not using them.What a God blessing she is.
I'm torn between Catey my beautiful baby girl or leaving her with a good family friend of mine.I know she'll miss mommy,but then I can concentrate on hubby.